In this beautiful, urgent, and ultimately uplifting novel by a rising Irish literary star comes a heart-pounding, life-affirming story about one woman trying to leave her marriage and start over.
On a bright spring afternoon, Ciara Fay makes a split-second decision that will change everything. Grabbing an armful of clothes off the clothesline, she straps her two young daughters into her car and drives away. Head spinning, all she knows for certain is that home is no longer safe—and that this time, when she leaves, she must stay away.
On the surface, she has a perfect life: her husband, Ryan, is a good provider, sometimes even kind and attentive, from a nice Irish family, and they have another baby on the way. But he also monitors Ciara's every move, flies into unpredictable rages where he convinces her she can do nothing right, and has isolated her from work, friends, and her beloved family.
Was fleeing the right thing to do? With no job and no support, Ciara struggles to provide a sense of normalcy for her little girls. Facing a broken housing system, they move into a hotel room on a floor reserved for women like her, eating takeout, washing their clothes in the bathroom sink, and building a community with the other residents. Ryan, meanwhile, wages a relentless campaign to win her back, and Ciara wavers. He never hit her, after all, and don't the girls need a stable home?
For fans of Claire Keegan and Louise Kennedy, Roisín O'Donnell’s extraordinary debut creates a devastating and suspenseful portrait of gaslighting and emotional abuse—and even better, a triumphant story about family, love, and finding a new place to nest.
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- ISBN: 9781643755724
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- ISBN: 9781643755724
- File size: 3037 KB
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- English
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Kirkus
Starred review from December 1, 2024
In Dublin, a pregnant woman with two little girls flees a controlling, critical husband. O'Donnell's striking debut opens with what looks from a distance like a happy family at the seashore. Close up, the water is too cold, the wind is too strong, and as tiny as they are, the girls have outgrown their wetsuits and their father is screaming at their mother, demanding to know what she'd done with the money he gave her to buy new ones. By the end of the first chapter, we want to get away from Ryan as badly as Ciara does, even if he's handsome, loyal, a good provider, and hasn't actually hit her...yet. That wetsuit money has been tucked away in a diaper bag in preparation for something Ciara hasn't quite admitted to herself she's going to do. And then, at last, it's time. O'Donnell's novel follows Ciara, Ella, and Sophie as they negotiate the harsh realities of sudden homelessness, father's rights, and the Irish housing crisis. Ciara's mother and sister live in England, she's lost her pre-marriage friends, and she can pay for no more than one night's accommodation with that roll of bills. With Ryan constantly hounding her by text, she eventually finds her way into emergency accommodations in a hotel with a dedicated floor for unhoused women and families. Here, she will make a friend and begin to figure out next steps--which are that much more complicated when a pregnancy test reveals the reason for her recent nausea and exhaustion. The mounting tension and suspense as Ciara struggles to stay free and safe make the pages fly. O'Donnell gives us a great character to root for and a portrait of her situation that is both terrifying and ultimately inspiring. An afterword confirms the impression that it's based on research into real women's experiences. A propulsive, nuanced, achingly real novel that will appeal to both Colleen Hoover fans and devotees of Irish fiction.COPYRIGHT(2024) Kirkus Reviews, ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.
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Publisher's Weekly
Starred review from November 25, 2024
Irish writer O’Donnell debuts with a wrenching and scrupulously realistic narrative of a Dublin-based mother who, after years of emotional and sexual abuse, decides to leave her husband. In the spring of 2018, Ciara, mother of four-year-old Sophie and two-year-old Ella, has recently discovered she is pregnant again. She’s also reached a breaking point with her volatile and controlling husband Ryan, in whose presence she feels a “bright, animal” fear. While he is out of the house, she packs Sophie and Ella into her “beater” car with a few belongings. She has little money and nowhere to go (her mother and sister live in England, and the law forbids her from taking the children there without her husband’s permission), so she’s forced to take them to a hotel that doubles as a homeless shelter. O’Donnell follows Ciara through a year of sharing the room with Sophie and Ella as she doggedly tries to make a new life for them. She gets a job teaching English as a second language and makes friends with the other moms on her floor and with Diego, a Brazilian cleaner at the hotel. Meanwhile, Ryan pressures her to return and files a lawsuit to gain custody of the children. Ultimately hopeful, the narrative steers away from melodrama, offering instead a close examination of Ciara’s daily struggles and hard-won triumphs, all of which are depicted in crystalline and lyrical prose. It’s an unforgettable portrait of an all-too-common dilemma.
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